I HAVE TO N STUFF N STUFF

OK IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO MONTHS NOW SINCE MY BREAK-UP AND I AM STILL VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH MY EX BUT I CAN'T STAND IT NO MORE. I'LL NEVER MEET ANYONE ELSE STAYING AT HOME AND I'LL NEVER GET OVER HIM EITHER. IT'S NOT HEALTHY. I MEAN SURE, I'VE BEEN WORKING ALOT MORE AND WORKING ON THIS REUNION, BUT I LOVE MEN!!!!

I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE TO BE ALONE FOR LONG.....AND IT'S LITERALLY DRIVING ME CRAZY!!! I GOTTA GET OUT & MINGLE N STUFF..... JUST SAYING N STUFF!!!

REUNION N STUFF N STUFF

I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN A BIT CAUSE I'VE BEEN SOOOO BUSY N STUFF. WE HAVE A BIG HOMETOWN REUNION COMING UP IN A COUPLE WEEKS & I'M ONE OF THE COORDINATORS SO I'VE BEEN BUSY MAKING BANNERS N STUFF. THIS REUNION IS SO EXCITING; IT'S NOT YOUR EVERYDAY REUNION. WE'RE STARTING OUT AT THE PARK THAT WE ALL USED TO KICK IT AT "BLUE ROCK" FOR A BIG POTLUCK N STUFF.

I WROTE ABOUT "THE RUN" A WHILE BACK. IT'S THE "CRUISE" IN MY HOMETOWN & MY FONDEST MEMORIES ARE FROM THOSE DAYS!!!! WELL THIS REUNION IS FOR ALL THE PEEPS THAT USED TO CRUISE & HANG-OUT & IT IS JUST GOING TO BE TOO MUCH FUN N STUFF.

JOHN ROOT - GORGEOUS!!! - R.I.P.

I SPENT MOST OF MY TEENAGE YEARS OUT ON THE CRUISE. I MET MY YOUNGEST SON'S DAD (JR) OUT THERE AND HE WAS THE MOST GORGEOUS MAN I'VE EVER KNOWN. HE PASSED AWAY LAST YEAR AT A VERY YOUNG 45 YRS OLD  & IT'S GOING TO BE NICE TO BE AROUND ALL THE OLD FRIENDS AND REMINISCE. HE WAS A REGULAR OUT THERE ON THE CRUISE N STUFF AND WE ALL MISS HIM VERY MUCH N STUFF....... ONE OF OUR HOMIEZ WILL BE TAKING JR & OUR OTHER "FRIENDS IN HEAVEN" FOR ONE LAST CRUISE N STUFF.....................

FUNK N STUFF N STUFF

NOW I KNOW MOST OF THE CONCERTS I'VE GONE TO AND TALKED ABOUT ARE ROCK CONCERTS, BUT I LIKE A WIDE VARIETY OF MUSIC N STUFF. I LOVE ME SOME GOOD OL' FUNK MUSIC. ONE OF MY FAVORITE CONCERTS WAS A FUNK FEST THAT ME AND MY SISTER WENT TO AND WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!!

"CAMEO" WAS THE MAIN BAND AND "WORD UP" WAS THE SONG AT THE TIME. THEY WERE THE STUFF N STUFF.  MORRIS DAY AND THE TIME WERE HELLA COOL TOO - "JUNGLE LOVE" WAS BOMB. OH YEAH, YOU DROPPED A BOMB ON ME......BABY!!

THEN, THE SUGAR HILL GANG BLEW THE PLACE UP AND WE GOT TO GET ON STAGE AND DANCE WITH THEM N STUFF.

 THE MARY JANE GIRLS WERE HELLA HOT TOO.......THAT CONCERT WAS TOO MUCH FUN AND TALK ABOUT SOME DANCIN' ASS PEOPLES!!! FUNK IS PART OF MY PAST THAT I STILL ENJOY AND ALWAYS WILL....N STUFF!!!

BREAKING UP N STUFF N STUFF

SO I TOLD MYSELF I WASN'T GONNA EVEN SAY NOTHING ABOUT THIS SHIT.....BUT HERE I GO. I AM DRUNK RIGHT NOW....JUST TO PUT IT OUT THERE. I'VE RECENTLY GONE THROUGH A "BREAK-UP" AND I THINK I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS BETTER THAN MOST ANY BREAK UPS IN MY PAST. THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE RELATIONSHIPS THAT ARE LIKE BACK N FORTH N STUFF. THIS IS LIKE OVER AND THATS IT.....

NO......NEITHER OF US CHEATED ON EACH OTHER. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF. I REALLY LOVED THIS GUY AND I THINK HE LOVED ME. WE HAD SOME REALLY GOOD TIMES BUT WE HAD SOME FIGHTS THAT WE BOTH SAID THINGS THAT COULDN'T BE RECONCILED. AND THE GRAND FINALE WAS IT.......NO GOING BACK.

I WILL ADMIT I DID TRY AND MESSAGE HIM AND TRY TO CONVINCE HIM THAT WE COULD MAKE IT WORK......WHICH HE JUST LAUGHED AND SAID "NEVER". I DID PULL THE OLD STUPID STALKER SPY SHIT FOR A MINUTE......BUT COME ON, I SHAMED MYSELF BY DOING THAT.

SO I TOLD MYSELF......GIRL, TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. OBVIOUSLY YOU'VE DONE THIS BEFORE. YEP. WE ALL HAVE, RIGHT. WHO HASN'T.......JUST GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE. YOU'LL FORGET ABOUT HIM & FIND SOMEBODY ELSE, JUST LIKE YOU HAVE BEFORE AND HE HAS BEFORE AND EVERYBODY HAS BEFORE, RIGHT N STUFF.

BUT HE IS THE ONE......I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE RETARDED N STUFF BUT I'M GROWN. I'VE BEEN THROUGH MANY RELATIONSHIPS AND I THOUGHT MY HEART WOULD NEVER  MEND AFTER MOST OF THEM. I'VE DONE & FELT ALL THE USUAL SHIT WITH ALL MY OTHER BREAK-UPS. BUT THIS BREAK-UP IS DIFFERENT.

I HAVEN'T BEEN OUT SLUTTIN' N STUFF. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO ANYONE ABOUT IT. I HAVEN'T CALLED HIM. I HAVEN'T THREATENED TO KILL MYSELF. I HAVEN'T STARTED DRESSING LIKE A SLEEZE. I HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT AT THE BARS. I HAVEN'T DONE ANY OF THE STUPID THINGS THAT I ALWAYS DID IN THE PAST.

I TRULY LOVE THIS MAN. NOT A LITTLE GIRL KINDA CRUSH. NOT A PASSING LUST. I LOVE HIM FOR THE INTERESTING, FUNNY, SMART, WONDERFUL PERSON THAT HE IS. YES, HE IS AN ASSHOLE IN ALOT OF WAYS. BUT HE HAS TAUGHT ME MORE THAN ANY PERSON I'VE EVER KNOWN. HE IS THE ONLY MAN I'VE EVER BEEN WITH THAT I CONSULTED WITH. I TRUST HIS JUDGEMENT AND HIS ADVICE MORE THAN ANYONE I'VE EVER KNOWN IN MY LIFE. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW.............N STUFF!