SO I TOLD MYSELF I WASN'T GONNA EVEN SAY NOTHING ABOUT THIS SHIT.....BUT HERE I GO. I AM DRUNK RIGHT NOW....JUST TO PUT IT OUT THERE. I'VE RECENTLY GONE THROUGH A "BREAK-UP" AND I THINK I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS BETTER THAN MOST ANY BREAK UPS IN MY PAST. THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE RELATIONSHIPS THAT ARE LIKE BACK N FORTH N STUFF. THIS IS LIKE OVER AND THATS IT.....
NO......NEITHER OF US CHEATED ON EACH OTHER. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF. I REALLY LOVED THIS GUY AND I THINK HE LOVED ME. WE HAD SOME REALLY GOOD TIMES BUT WE HAD SOME FIGHTS THAT WE BOTH SAID THINGS THAT COULDN'T BE RECONCILED. AND THE GRAND FINALE WAS IT.......NO GOING BACK.
I WILL ADMIT I DID TRY AND MESSAGE HIM AND TRY TO CONVINCE HIM THAT WE COULD MAKE IT WORK......WHICH HE JUST LAUGHED AND SAID "NEVER". I DID PULL THE OLD STUPID STALKER SPY SHIT FOR A MINUTE......BUT COME ON, I SHAMED MYSELF BY DOING THAT.
SO I TOLD MYSELF......GIRL, TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. OBVIOUSLY YOU'VE DONE THIS BEFORE. YEP. WE ALL HAVE, RIGHT. WHO HASN'T.......JUST GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE. YOU'LL FORGET ABOUT HIM & FIND SOMEBODY ELSE, JUST LIKE YOU HAVE BEFORE AND HE HAS BEFORE AND EVERYBODY HAS BEFORE, RIGHT N STUFF.
BUT HE IS THE ONE......I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE RETARDED N STUFF BUT I'M GROWN. I'VE BEEN THROUGH MANY RELATIONSHIPS AND I THOUGHT MY HEART WOULD NEVER MEND AFTER MOST OF THEM. I'VE DONE & FELT ALL THE USUAL SHIT WITH ALL MY OTHER BREAK-UPS. BUT THIS BREAK-UP IS DIFFERENT.
I HAVEN'T BEEN OUT SLUTTIN' N STUFF. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO ANYONE ABOUT IT. I HAVEN'T CALLED HIM. I HAVEN'T THREATENED TO KILL MYSELF. I HAVEN'T STARTED DRESSING LIKE A SLEEZE. I HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT AT THE BARS. I HAVEN'T DONE ANY OF THE STUPID THINGS THAT I ALWAYS DID IN THE PAST.
I TRULY LOVE THIS MAN. NOT A LITTLE GIRL KINDA CRUSH. NOT A PASSING LUST. I LOVE HIM FOR THE INTERESTING, FUNNY, SMART, WONDERFUL PERSON THAT HE IS. YES, HE IS AN ASSHOLE IN ALOT OF WAYS. BUT HE HAS TAUGHT ME MORE THAN ANY PERSON I'VE EVER KNOWN. HE IS THE ONLY MAN I'VE EVER BEEN WITH THAT I CONSULTED WITH. I TRUST HIS JUDGEMENT AND HIS ADVICE MORE THAN ANYONE I'VE EVER KNOWN IN MY LIFE.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW.............N STUFF!
NO......NEITHER OF US CHEATED ON EACH OTHER. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF. I REALLY LOVED THIS GUY AND I THINK HE LOVED ME. WE HAD SOME REALLY GOOD TIMES BUT WE HAD SOME FIGHTS THAT WE BOTH SAID THINGS THAT COULDN'T BE RECONCILED. AND THE GRAND FINALE WAS IT.......NO GOING BACK.
I WILL ADMIT I DID TRY AND MESSAGE HIM AND TRY TO CONVINCE HIM THAT WE COULD MAKE IT WORK......WHICH HE JUST LAUGHED AND SAID "NEVER". I DID PULL THE OLD STUPID STALKER SPY SHIT FOR A MINUTE......BUT COME ON, I SHAMED MYSELF BY DOING THAT.SO I TOLD MYSELF......GIRL, TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. OBVIOUSLY YOU'VE DONE THIS BEFORE. YEP. WE ALL HAVE, RIGHT. WHO HASN'T.......JUST GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE. YOU'LL FORGET ABOUT HIM & FIND SOMEBODY ELSE, JUST LIKE YOU HAVE BEFORE AND HE HAS BEFORE AND EVERYBODY HAS BEFORE, RIGHT N STUFF.
BUT HE IS THE ONE......I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE RETARDED N STUFF BUT I'M GROWN. I'VE BEEN THROUGH MANY RELATIONSHIPS AND I THOUGHT MY HEART WOULD NEVER MEND AFTER MOST OF THEM. I'VE DONE & FELT ALL THE USUAL SHIT WITH ALL MY OTHER BREAK-UPS. BUT THIS BREAK-UP IS DIFFERENT.
I HAVEN'T BEEN OUT SLUTTIN' N STUFF. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO ANYONE ABOUT IT. I HAVEN'T CALLED HIM. I HAVEN'T THREATENED TO KILL MYSELF. I HAVEN'T STARTED DRESSING LIKE A SLEEZE. I HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT AT THE BARS. I HAVEN'T DONE ANY OF THE STUPID THINGS THAT I ALWAYS DID IN THE PAST.
I TRULY LOVE THIS MAN. NOT A LITTLE GIRL KINDA CRUSH. NOT A PASSING LUST. I LOVE HIM FOR THE INTERESTING, FUNNY, SMART, WONDERFUL PERSON THAT HE IS. YES, HE IS AN ASSHOLE IN ALOT OF WAYS. BUT HE HAS TAUGHT ME MORE THAN ANY PERSON I'VE EVER KNOWN. HE IS THE ONLY MAN I'VE EVER BEEN WITH THAT I CONSULTED WITH. I TRUST HIS JUDGEMENT AND HIS ADVICE MORE THAN ANYONE I'VE EVER KNOWN IN MY LIFE.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW.............N STUFF!
i think you were very special to him as well angela ...and coming from the wife he cheated on to be with you at first ...THIS IS SAYING ALOT...so i just want u to know i am on your side and hope this can work out for u guys ...been trying to get him these divorce papers ...didnt know how to find him andhe wouldnt reply...was knowing him n i both want a divorce and maybe you and him ...well anyway girl i am here....and I THINK U MAY BE RIGHT .,,so fuck everyone else ...even him , he lies when he hurts ...i'm his wife ...since 2004 ....( separated since he went to prison everybody!!!!! angela is not doing wrong!!!...(this time) (sorry ...had to say that from years ago on my bday)) and if you and i both think it ...well who better knows him..huh?
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